Tuesday, October 14, 2014

Can a Letter Make You That Crazy? Tuesday Tales

Happy Hot Tuesday and welcome to The Locker. 

Today, I move to book two of my current WIP, A Game of Inches, for my Fantasy Leagues series. This week we write to the word prompt "letter". 


Now, mom had me concerned. Normally, she’s going out of her way luring me back to ground zero. I’ve turned down home cooking, money, vacations, you name it. I always had an excuse. I know it appears I harbor nothing but contempt and frustration for this female who birthed me. However, I must admit, right here…right now. I love my mother. I will always love my mother, no matter how weird she becomes. Neither of us can change the past. My indiscretions, insert heavy sarcasm, more than outweigh the burden of being Laverne’s spawn. We are at a stalemate in the game of hurting each other. I realize neither of us have the energy, nor the inclination, to continue throwing emotional daggers as one another.

Hence my deep concern she obviously doesn’t want me in our family home.

It became our family home the moment I felt unwelcome.

I pulled into the driveway. “Mom, I need to be home, just for a little bit.”

“Oh, corn nuts, fine! You promise not to say…”

I opened the door with flourish. “Not a single…” Dear baby Jesus in a basket. Or was that Noah? What the hell was she doing? I shouldn’t have made that promise.

Every flat surface was covered. If the surface was soft, there was something stiff like cardboard covering it. I stepped further into the living room. Bits, odd shapes, and tiny multicolored fragments scattered around. I had to be surrounded by ten thousand jigsaw puzzle pieces. “Mom?”

Laverne stood wringing her hands. “So, I have new hobby.”

“How…how many of these do you have going?”

“Oh, I don’t know, when I get stumped with one, I can go to another.”

I slowly nodded, smiling as much as my skepticism would allow. “You certainly have…options.”

“I knew it. I knew you would think I’m crazy.”

“I promised you I wouldn’t say a word. I won’t.”

“You can’t stop your body language.”

I closed my eyes, seeing fresh baked cookies, a Christmas tree, and our stockings by the fireplace. I casually glanced over. There were three puzzles in varied stages of completion on the tile in front of the hearth. I walked to them. “Holiday scenes and snow…” I looked at the box lids demonstrating the completed picture.

“Yes, I thought they would look good framed hanging over here for Christmas.”

Then, I saw it. The Letter. It was on the mantle. I reached out, touching it gingerly. I drew my hand back fast. “I like the idea of Christmas puzzle pictures.”

“The letter won’t bite you Lola-girl. Hold it for a while. Think about it.”






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Thursday, October 9, 2014

Don't Put Me in Charge of Money - UGH!


Good morning!  I’ve decided to use my blog not only to writing, music, and other facets of entertainment, but, also to share my journey. I’ve had significant health problems for almost three years. Initially, a rheumatologist diagnosed me with systemic lupus (SLE) on June 19, 2013. However, the medication wasn’t working and I kept getting worse and developing new symptoms. So, after second, third, and fourth opinions, my neurologist believes instead I have fibromyalgia. 

In April 2014 I visited yet another rheumatologist who I hoped would be familiar with autoimmune disorders. Following an extensive intake during my initial appointment, I found a place where the doctor also listened to me. Based upon my blood work, the doctor believes I have Sjogren’s Syndrome. She also made the diagnosis of Fibromyalgia and pre-lupus. I’ve never heard of pre-lupus, but, hopefully it stays in the “pre” category.

Thank you for listening, each week I will have a new installment chronicling my journey- Which is now more frustrating than ever. I test positive for ANAs in my blood, but, the lupus tests are negative. There are several varieties of autoimmune disorders, with different caveats and health variations. Learning to live with the unknown has become my routine. With worsening symptoms, I consulted an amazing oncologist, Dr. Gerardo Trillo at Texas Oncology.

DON’T PUT ME IN CHARGE OF MONEY

Yesterday was the annual volleyball Pink Out for breast cancer awareness and fundraiser. It’s a big deal, lots of fun, and we enjoy raising money to fight such a heartbreaking illness. I was in charge of concession duty for half a shift. I knew this for a few weeks, no big deal. My daughter game was at 5:30, and I truly believed one hour would get me there.

BAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Feckin’ Dallas Metro traffic.

Then, get in my residential area, to find a MAJOR intersection that’s been under road construction for a freakin’ year, also had a light out. It was flashing red like a 4-way stop. Yep, traffic backed up for literally miles in ALL directions. My friend was messaging me that my daughter was looking for me. Where was I?  The game started…I felt like such a loser mom. Thank you Morgan for the updates. I do appreciate it. #village!

Needless to say I didn’t get to the game until 6:15.

I still had to stop by my house (on the way) pick up The Husband, and the gift basket I donated to the silent auction. Anyone who is running late and held captive in traffic understands the full on feeling of helplessness, claustrophobia, and road rage. I was cussing right and left in my car, with the windows up. No one needed to hear my rant, they felt the same way I did.

GRR

I saw my daughter play for about 5 minutes. They won the game. YAY! I tried not to let on I didn’t see much.

So, rush to the concession stand for my shift. Thankfully, The Husband offered to help, great guy. We also had a couple other helpers, so, wouldn’t be bad. Right?

Ummm, until I had to start adding and making change.

Yeah, that’s what this M.Ed. graduate just said. I graduated with a 3.6 GPA, I’m not a rocket scientist, but, I can hold my own in dinner conversation.

The first slam occurred when a lady ordered 3.50 worth of snacks and gave me a 50 dollar bill.

Blank stare.

WTF?

My brain turned off.

I initially gave her 41.50 in change.

No shit.

For real.

I look to The Husband, HELP.

We figured it out. That wasn’t the first one of the night. My brain fog graduated from remembering a grocery list to full blown blank slate. The reverse Tabla Rosa…things I don’t want to unlearn.

I even spelled a few easy words incorrectly yesterday.
 
I’ve invested in tons of pencils and electric sharpener for the day job.

No shit.

WTF?

#Sjogrens Syndrome sucks. Autoimmune diseases suck.

Was it the stress of running like a chicken with my head cut off? I don’t know. Strange that I suddenly couldn’t handle money, and, today, I’ve bordered on a migraine that’s gonna hit me tonight like a freight train. The tinnitus is on high volume today. I see a visit to my neurologist in the future. And, a Sjogrens specialist here in Dallas.

I went to yoga today. Yes, that helped. Thank goodness for Christina and her wonderful class.

Forward march…it’s all we can do.

 

 

Monday, October 6, 2014

Tuesday Tales - Ending up a Kidnapper Short

Happy Hot Tuesday and welcome to The Locker. We are changing it up. FINALLY Book one is with The Editor! TaDa! Boom!

Today, I move to book two of my current WIP, A Game of Inches, for my Fantasy Leagues series. This week we write to the word prompt "short". Poor Lola, she can't "catch" a break any better than I could catch a touchdown pass from Peyton Manning. shameless pun.


“Yes, Danika, I had a colorful childhood.”

“Colorful? That’s just stupid, Lola. You were sexually abused, physically abused, and emotionally abused. You have too much abuse in your past to ignore, hoping it dies an agonizing death. It's your inner voice, crying for help.”

“No, that would have been the sound of my youth meeting the reaper.”

“Still want to make jokes? I don’t see how.” She really had the brain of someone warped into a cult. Looking back now, I realize my parents exposed me to trashed up stuff. However, the more I hear from Lola, the more I feel I was raised by a model mother and father.

“I asked for most of it. Quit trying to blame other people for my horrible choices.”

“I don’t want to blame anyone. I want to help you move out of your crusty panties into the shower you haven’t seen in almost two weeks.”

“Did you know depression hurts, Cymbalta can help?”

“Son of a bastard.” I had to take a good hard look at the woman sitting in front of me. Lola completely regressed into some alter ego teenage rebellious personality. Funny thing was, I don’t believe she ever moved past those years at all. The suit, her business, success…those were facades. She learned self-preservation from a young age, but the ridiculous part? She didn’t need to. I don’t understand kids who make such shitty choices when they don’t have any real reason to do so. Lola put herself in harms’ way on purpose. It blew my mind. “Stop being a wise-ass. Maybe if you had taken some medication you’d be wearing clean clothes as a productive member of society.”

Lola picked at a very old manicure, chipping off like flat paint from an ocean side home. “As a lover, he fell short. As a kidnapper, he scared me witless."

Her words struck me cold, instantly giving me goosebumps. “What the hell, Lola. Were you abducted? Do we need to go to the police? For fuck’s sake, talk to me!”









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Monday, September 29, 2014

Pretty Little Perverts...or Normal? Tuesday Tales

Happy Hot Tuesday and welcome to The Locker. Today, I again return to my current WIP, re-titled Split the Uprights for my Fantasy Leagues series. This week we write to the word prompt "pretty". I keep thinking I won't have another edition for Tuesday Tales from this book, but, I keep writing more. :) Danika and Finn still haven't made that connection...will they ever? 



Neither of us belonged here and we knew it. However, had we not made the stupid decision, the normally wrong decision to join this ridiculous club, we wouldn’t be sitting here sharing cheese dip and draft beer. Love finds a way. Love splits the uprights and scores the critical points. Love is the champion, the reason for the game. Love is way fucking bigger than the Lombardi Trophy and a thousand times as valuable. We might be the only two in this whole room to know the secret. I wanted to sit here forever. I had a feeling she had the same idea.
“Finn?”
My mouth momentarily wouldn’t work, like a log jam in a flooded river, too many words rushed to my tongue at the same time.
“Finn?” She leaned in toward me, a sense of urgency in her voice this time.
“I’m okay, got a chip stuck in my gullet.” I rubbed my throat. “I shouldn’t show off with a full mouth.”
“You are too cute. Everything you say or do comes from a place of authenticity. How do you manage that?”
“I never learned how to fake anything. I never wanted to.”
“I’m glad.” Danika scooped up the right amount of cheese on an equally perfectly sized chip. She hesitated before she brought it to my lips. I’m sure I looked like a dog eating peanut butter, only because she enchanted me with an unplanned move. Penalty, flag on the playfifteen yards…how about fifteen kisses, ref? Did I want her to think of kissing me as a penalty? She’s so damn pretty.
Shit, I’m twitterpated. 
The friggin’ bell rang, forcing me to get up. The next guy practically pushed me out of the way. “My turn with the good doctor.” He looked way too pervy.
Danika intervened with another chip, motioning me next to her. “We’ll talk again soon.” She shoved the chip inside before I started drooling. The drool had nothing to do with the melty cheese. She was the culprit. All I could do was nod. She laughed at me. I deserved it, she made me giddy.
Who the hell says giddy anymore?

I do.




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Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Tuesday Tales Fall is Here- Don't it Make You S.A.D.?

 
 
Happy Fall Tuesday Tales? Today, I return to my current WIP, re-titled Split the Uprights for my Fantasy Leagues series. This week we write to the beautiful picture prompt below. Three hundred words...what can I set up for you? Did Lola actually kill herself?

Thank goodness Finn agreed to join me on this wild search. I couldn’t ask Eugene, I still haven’t figured that guy out. At least Finn had enough social filter not to blurt something inappropriate if we found Lola in a compromising position. Eugene might piss me off with his indifference. Maybe I should have called the authorities, I respected Lola enough at this point to track her down myself. Who knows what shape she would be in.

“You know very well what you're going to find in the depths of that place."

I don’t know what made Lola postal, clearly she felt the need to become a survivalist as some sort of self-preservation measure. “Look, Finn, something is so wrong with her, it could be medical.”

“Why the hell would she hole up in some abandoned barn? Lola is all about manicures, room service, and fluffy pillows. This is not where she would have a meltdown.” Finn stared at the building, bewilderment tensing every muscle. “I just don’t think she is in there.”

“I think you’re wrong and I need to check it out. You can stay here, but, be ready to dial the police.”

“You don’t think she killed herself do you?” Finn became ashen, blanching like an almond in the summer sun. “I can’t deal with that.”

All my life death was another part of the day. People became mannequins we simply moved from one place to another, sometimes piece by piece. Human puzzles filled dark black bags, waiting for disposal- no sense in making it more than what it was. For some reason, I couldn’t see Lola in one of those bags, it reviled and saddened me to think of disposing her to some sterile medical examiner. It was wrong, she deserved better than my normal day.
 

 
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Thursday, September 18, 2014

5 Snowflake Book Review!!!! Colleen Hoover!


Book Review ***** Snowflakes!
 

Maybe Someday by Colleen Hoover Goodreads Maybe Someday

This 367 page book is the first I’ve read by Colleen Hoover. When I saw this book listed as a fan favorite, I decided to read her work and get a better understanding of who this author is, and how she writes.

It was beautiful. I’m proud to be a fellow Texan with folks like Colleen.

Ms. Hoover’s succinct writing style did not disappoint me. I like descriptors, good scene/character development, and closing a scene. She did a very good job of articulating and setting up the characters. I noticed one potential error, but, it was simply a mix up of words.

I appreciated how thoroughly she covered the life that a deaf person would face each day. The realism charmed me, and I was amazed how well she saw the perspective through Ridge’s eyes, even with the profound hearing loss. It was fabulous to see how well this character played the guitar and could put together songs. I will always admire the character in Ridge she developed.

The characters wove their lives together in a believable family style. The caring and generosity between them all made me smile more than once. I don’t even need to give away any spoilers, because the quality alone makes this book worth your time- just trust me.

I also like how she gave just enough details about the intimate scenes for a readers’ imagination. I would suggest this could be appropriate for the mature high school-aged reading crowd. Even when she did go into the small details, she set the image tastefully and modestly.

All in all, Ms. Hoover writes a believable story about a unique couple finding genuine love through an equally unique set of circumstances.  She portrayed an accurate description of the fear of what to do with their feelings. I could feel the character’s frustrations, infatuations, and just how intensely the human condition can affect anyone-regardless of their situation.
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Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Belly Fat is Not Just Uncomfortable, It Could be H. Pylori


Good morning!  I’ve decided to use my blog not only to writing, music, and other facets of entertainment, but, also to share my journey. I’ve had significant health problems for almost three years. Initially, a rheumatologist diagnosed me with systemic lupus (SLE) on June 19, 2013. However, the medication wasn’t working and I kept getting worse and developing new symptoms. So, after second, third, and fourth opinions, my neurologist believes instead I have fibromyalgia. 

In April 2014 I visited yet another rheumatologist who I hoped would be familiar with autoimmune disorders. Following an extensive intake during my initial appointment, I found a place where the doctor also listened to me. Based upon my blood work, the doctor believes I have Sjogren’s Syndrome. She also made the diagnosis of Fibromyalgia and pre-lupus. I’ve never heard of pre-lupus, but, hopefully it stays in the “pre” category.

Thank you for listening, each week I will have a new installment chronicling my journey- Which is now more frustrating than ever. I test positive for ANAs in my blood, but, the lupus tests are negative. There are several varieties of autoimmune disorders, with different caveats and health variations. Learning to live with the unknown has become my routine. With worsening symptoms, I consulted an amazing oncologist, Dr. Gerardo Trillo at Texas Oncology.

HELICOBACTER PYLORI INVASION

Out of the multitude of lab work the doctor ordered, one that came back positive was the H. Pylori bacteria.  This disgusting, creepy bacterium resembles some type of parasite. It’s all I can do to try to forget about it without wanting to take a paint scraper to my insides. Dr. Trillo described it as having tentacles with little pliers on the end of each one. It burrows into your stomach lining and clenches in with those pliers. Uber. Ick.

According to the Mayo Clinic - Mayo Clinic H. Pylori

“H. pylori infection occurs when a type of bacteria called Helicobacter pylori (H. pylori) infects your stomach. This usually happens during childhood. A common cause of peptic ulcers, H. pylori infection may be present in more than half the people in the world.

Most people don't realize they have H. pylori infection, because they never get sick from it. If you develop signs and symptoms of a peptic ulcer, your doctor will probably test you for H. pylori infection, because it can be treated with antibiotics.”

In all the vials of blood I’ve given, never once was I tested for H. Pylori, along with some other tests I now believe should have been ordered. I will get into that in a different blog post. However, I’m so thankful Dr. Trillo thinks outside the box. Anyone diagnosed with an autoimmune disease is likely NOT TEXTBOOK. I found two doctors who admit I’m a puzzle and want to help me figure it out.

Dr. Trillo called me a “tough cookie”. Love it.



Back to topic- In the daily fight waged within my immune system, the H. Pylori bacteria creates an infection that may cause ulcers, gastritis, and even cancer. Not everyone infected will actually develop cancer, but, it’s a very real possibility.

Again from the Mayo Clinic –

“Most people with H. pylori infection will never have any signs or symptoms. It's not clear why this is, but some people may be born with more resistance to the harmful effects of H. pylori.

When signs or symptoms do occur with H. pylori infection, they may include:

 •An ache or burning pain in your abdomen

•Abdominal pain that's worse when your stomach is empty

•Nausea

•Loss of appetite

•Frequent burping

•Bloating

•Unintentional weight loss

When to see a doctor

 Make an appointment with your doctor if you notice any persistent signs and symptoms that worry you. Seek immediate medical help if you experience:

 •Severe or persistent abdominal pain

•Difficulty swallowing

•Bloody or black tarry stools

•Bloody or black vomit or vomit that looks like coffee grounds

In my case, I was already consulting doctor after doctor in a quest to get to the root of my seriously declining health problems. I’m to the point that keeping up in simple yoga is sometimes too much for me to handle. I was doing triathlons 3 years ago and my condition really really sucks now- it’s depressing and frustrating. I’ve gained 30 pounds in 3 years. Yes, 30, that’s like 3 or 4 babies or 6 bags of sugar.

Imagine me with 6 bags of sugar duct taped to my mid-section. Can someone say “Cortisol”? Having this infection may lead to an increase in cortisol, resulting in stubborn belly fat making my midsection horribly distended, fat, and bloated. It’s not just the aesthetics of it all, it increases the risk of heart disease and high blood pressure when fat accumulates in the mid-section.

I’m smack dab in the middle of the prescription therapy for H. Pylori. My doc prescribed 2000 mg daily of antibiotics and 60 mg of an acid blocker. It’s part of a ready packaged regimen that I hope does the trick.

I will have follow up testing to check for any remainder of the H. Pylori. I will also have an endoscopy and colonoscopy next month. I bet you can’t wait for that blog post.

Take charge of your health. My rheumy patted me on the back and told me that my symptoms were just part of the fibromyalgia. I looked over my lab results and said NO. I kept researching, not to diagnose myself, but, to find a doctor to listen to me and help me. I believe I’m finally on my way.

Hugs to you all and infinite love.