Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Tuesday Tales...A Stutter Step Changing His World



Happy January Tuesday Tales... Today, I return to my current WIP, Personal Fouls, Book 3
for my Fantasy Leagues series. This week our group writes to the rather rebellious word, stutter. Read a little more about Rudy...

“How are you not resentful? You worked your whole life for your dream. Football was your life.”

“I was damn resentful for a long time. You didn’t see me when this first happened.” How could I quantify my life to her? I matured more after the accident than in all my years before.

“The only dream I’ve ever had was acceptance, to matter to someone besides my mom.”

“Oh, Boo, you matter, you inspire people to challenge their insecurities. You invoke change when you walk into a room. You command attention without saying a word, and none of it’s because you’re so damn beautiful.”

She leaned over, wrapping her arms around my neck. “I want to hold onto you forever.”

"I'm more of a man now that my legs feel nothing. My heart takes up the difference and I've grown as a person, I'm filled with hope." I knew my future was promised, blessed beyond measure. The inevitable obstacles wouldn’t stop me for long. I’d already come so far.

“You inspire me…but humble me all at the same time.”

“Lola, I’ve talked with the specialists. I’m a candidate for surgery. I could have full sexual function, which means having kids. I can still be a dad.”

“Is the procedure dangerous?” She backed away, sitting down heavily on the bench. “Do you really want more surgeries?”

“I’ll be okay. Did you hear me though? The only element, sentence of my fate, could be corrected, fulfilled.”

“You’ll be an incredible father.” She looked at a spot on the ground, the wheels of her brain churned behind her growing smile.


Our conversation was going too fast into serious territory. How could I say I wanted her to be the mother for my child? That if I only got one shot, one chance, I’d be honored if she carried my legacy. “I…it’s the one dream that mattered more than football. I want my chance to be called dad.” My heart did a little stutter, the steady excited flutter of life’s end zone. Could I make her see how important this was to me?

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Thursday, January 22, 2015

Now, Within My Grasp RA and Sjogrens


1/15/2014

I’ve decided to use my blog not only to writing, music, and other facets of entertainment, but, also to share my journey. I’ve had significant health problems for almost three years.

Thank you for listening, periodically, I will have a new installment chronicling my journey-

A DIAGNOSIS A LONG TIME IN THE WORKS

Hello, Fellow Fathomers, I appreciate your kindness, inspiration, and support. As many of you know, I was initially diagnosed with SLE, systemic lupus, almost two years ago. After that, a specialist further tested, and revealed no signs of lupus. Another doctor believed I had fibromyalgia and Sjogrens Syndrome.

Now after failed medications, not getting better, developing migraines, gaining almost 40 pounds, peripheral neuropathy, change medications, new medications…it’s a lot folks.

But!



I finally have conclusive blood results. I have Rheumatoid Arthritis and Sjogrens.

I don’t know much about RA, I know the autoimmune disease, Sjogrens, explains many of my symptoms. The RA further cements the symptoms I experience that are progressing quite rapidly.

I invite your comments, suggestions, and support about your experiences with RA- either as a patient or caregiver. I’m on a medication called Sulfazine, intended to slow the progression of the damage RA inflicts on joints, cartilage, bones and even organs. I also take Lyrica, Cymbalta, amitryptiline, vitamin D 10Kiu, B-125Kmcg, magnesium, Zyrtec, Flonase, and the occasional Sumatriptan for migraines and other allergy meds as needed.

Have a beautiful day, and together let’s learn!

Tuesday, January 20, 2015

Tuesday Tales are Getting Ruthless



Happy January Tuesday Tales... Today, I return to my current WIP, Personal Fouls, Book 3
for my Fantasy Leagues series. This week our group writes to the rather rebellious word, ruthless. Read a little tidbit about Rudy...

Before I could legally sit in the front seat of a car, I played football. Some kids played video games, soccer, went fishing, or watched cartoons, I was practicing. Every Sunday, I watched football all afternoon with my pops. He taught me about downs, off sides, running plays, penalties, and everything else I needed to know to make me invincible.

I spent hours throwing a football through a tire swing in the yard. I needed accuracy with the perfect spiral meant to leave the defense in the dust. Pops got me into little league football, giving me the chance to show my skills to the bigger kids. The difference between me and all the other boys, I breathed this game twenty-four seven, and it showed.

By no surprise, I broke every school record for my positions during four years of high school. I was the first freshman ever selected as all state in our conference, continuing every year till graduation. Then came college scholarships, more records, more accolades, then, finally, the pros.

Probably a few years into the limelight, I became a man I could no longer be proud of. While ruthless on the field was one thing, an asshole during the day to day was another. Playing pro ball gave me more than I wanted, could ever need. Still, nothing satisfied my greed for life, a lust for anyone who fed my overinflated ego. I looked in the mirror one day deciding no more.


Through mutual friends, I met Lola, a dominatrix who put guys like me in my place. Stripped down in her locker room dungeon, she didn’t allow my pompous attitude. She whipped my ass into complete submission, peeling away the layers of obnoxious, humbling my gluttonous soul. Lola returned me to the days of my momma taking a switch after my behind when I stepped out of line. She reminded me of the respect I’d forgotten for the people surrounding me. Lola forced me into appreciative obedience. 

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Sunday, January 18, 2015

Thespian Wench - Lisa Worrall and a Beautiful New Release


My beautiful friend Lisa has a new release to celebrate! This cover is simply gorgeous, no doubt perfect for the story tucked inside. Please see the excerpt of this latest M/M release, Follow My Lead:


Blurb:
Hell hath no fury like a boyfriend scorned as sitcom star and comedian, CJ Edwards, finds out when his ex releases a sex tape he hadn't even known was being filmed. Not to mention the headlines on every newsstand accusing CJ of being an abusive alcoholic. His career in tatters, CJ's agent manages to get CJ a spot on the Christmas special of Dancing with Stars in Your Eyes. Seeing it as a chance to possibly redeem himself, CJ accepts.

Lucien Moreau has been a dance professional on Dancing with Stars in Your Eyes for three years, and he loves it. Until the powers that be decide, in view of new marriage equality laws, the show's Christmas special will include a gay couple. Finding out he is being partnered with CJ Edwards hits him like a fist to the gut. Six months ago his brother and sister-in-law were killed in an accident when their car was hit by a drunk driver. How the hell is he supposed to teach a man, not unlike the one who destroyed his family, to dance?

Excerpt:
“What is wrong with you? No, no way. I’m not doing it. Nuh-uh, niet, nein, non, and not in a million years!”
“So that’s a no then?”
“Funny is not your strong point, Matthew. Leave it to the professionals.”
“Well, when I find one, I’ll be sure to do just that.”
CJ Edwards stopped pacing in front of the fireplace in his living room and glared at his agent, Matt Davis, who lounged against the plump cushions of CJ’s red leather couch. Although Matt had been his friend as well as his agent for almost eight years, CJ had to resist the urge to slap his face and that smug look on it, right off his head. The bastard thinks I’m gonna cave! Well, he can whistle. I ain’t doing it!
“Stow the hairy eyeball, Edwards,” Matt drawled. “We both know that stopped working on me a long time ago.”
“F off,” CJ bit back childishly.
“I’d love to, but you keep paying me,” Matt replied. “Look, dude, I love you, you know that, but this is all we’ve got. No comedy store appearances, no club openings, no sitcom renewal.” He tapped his points off on his fingers and CJ winced with each one. “That sex tape cost us big and no one wants to touch us. This is the only thing that’s crossed my desk for almost a year. The fee is enough for you not to have to sell the beach house, and it’ll give you the opportunity to redeem yourself. Let the public see the real you.”
“I think they’ve seen enough of the real me.”
“You’re being an ass, CJ. You need this.” Matt ran his hand through his dark hair. “It’s five weeks out of your life. Four weeks initial training, then three nights on the show. It’s a one off special, not a full season. It’ll be over before you know it.” CJ glared at him. “Look, I’d tell you to swallow your pride, but after the number Mario did on you, there ain’t a helluva lot left. For God’s sake, man. If you ever want the chance to salvage even the slightest bit of a career, this is it!”
“The token homo in Dancing with Stars in Our Eyes is going to save my career?” CJ yelled at Matt in frustration. “You can’t seriously believe that!”
“I believe it’s better than sitting on your ass all day complaining about how unfair life is!”
“Matt.” CJ’s shoulders slumped, the fight leaving him. “Please don’t make me do this.” He didn’t miss the twitch of Matt’s lips. Bastard!
“I can’t make you do anything.”
“Liar.” CJ sighed heavily and all but threw himself down on the other couch opposite Matt. “Alright, alright,” he huffed. “I’ll do it. But if I end up coming off even worse, I will kill you.”
“Goes without saying.” Matt grinned widely and pulled his cell out of his pocket, already tapping out numbers. “You won’t regret this, buddy. Hey, Linda? It’s Matt Davis. Yes, CJ will be very happy to join the cast of Dancing with Christmas Stars in Our Eyes. Yes…”
 Dancing with Christmas Stars in Our Eyes? Seriously? CJ picked up a cushion and covered his face with it. What am I doing?



Thursday, January 15, 2015

Making a Difference - Eradicate MS


I try to host a health related post each week in The Locker. I like to share my experiences in the hopes of helping someone else. I've decided to make a little turn and have a guest host for the next few weeks.

My friend Brian is a beast. He cycles more miles in a year than I probably drive in my car. He has a passion for health, and shares an equal passion to eradicate MS. Please be kind to Brian and give him a warm welcome.

Hugs-

My name is Brian Jones. I am an avid cyclist riding to rid the world of Multiple Sclerosis.

As we embark on a new year, I want to share some highlights of the South Central US chapter of the National MS Society:

  • 9 Bike MS events raised approximately $24.7 million.
  • 32 Walk MS events raised approximately $3.2 million.
  • 11 leadership events raised approximately $840k.
  • Their network of human service professionals is connecting people affected by MS to solutions that address the challenges and obstacles in their lives.
    • Service management professionals worked with more than 2000 individuals to help find solutions to the daily challenges of living with MS, and 382 individuals were assisted with critical needs such a medical equipment and home modifications through our direct financial assistance program
    • Professional care management specialists conducted 80 home assessments for people with MS who are experiencing the most complex and critical issues.
    • They connected with 709 newly diagnosed individuals to provide them with the best available information at the beginning of their MS journey.

They are connecting people with MS to resources on nutrition, exercise and wellness.

They partnered with community organizations and individual instructors to support 36 community wellness classes including yoga, aquatics, and assisted physical training. About 446 individuals attended these classes in 2014.

They partnered with Dr. Alexa Stuifbergen, professor and Dean at the University of Texas School of Nursing, to launch a new three year NIH-funded research trial on cognition. This work will result in the development of strategies to help people with MS compensate for memory loss.

All this was made possible by the generosity of so many. If you made a donation in 2014, all I can say is “Thank You and God Bless You”.
You are helping to make a difference for those who live with MS. Please help the MS Society keep the momentum going in 2015 by supportingme in my 10th BikeMS by visiting my page at
http://main.nationalmssociety.org/goto/Brian2015
to make a donation. Thank you and Happy New Year.

Please support my effort to find a cure for Multiple Sclerosis: http://main.nationalmssociety.org/goto/Brian2015

 

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Tuesday Tales and a Reason to Celebrate

Happy January Tuesday Tales... Today, I return to my current WIP, Personal Fouls, Book 3
for my Fantasy Leagues series. This week our group writes to the following celebratory picture prompt:

"I can tell you’re a gentle soul, full of kindness and love.”
“I appreciate that. Your opinion is important to me.”
“I’d like to call you my brother, would that be too forward?”
Sharlyn stunned me.  we obviously inherited no familial horrific tendencies. We had same manner of thought, compassion, and love. I’d secretly hoped she’d want to include me in her family, now, she was asking for my permission. “I’d really like that…sis.”
“We have so much catching up on. All the water balloon fights, pillow fights, spooky campfire stories, trips to the zoo, April Fools’ jokes.”
“Does your older brother harass you this much? Is that what you think siblings do?” I gave her a noogie on her top of her head.
“Absolutely! You know, he wants to get to know you too. You two will be brothers by association with me, the most important girl in your world.”
“I give up a liver and get a sister and a brother. I think it’s a fair trade.”
“You’re darn right it’s a fair trade. You’re older than Paul, so, you’ve got to be the good example.”
“I’m not sure I’m ready to be an example, that’s a big responsibility.”
“Too late, we’re gonna be watching you to blaze a trail. Don’t mess up.”
“I’m sure you’ll set me straight.”
“You’re learning more and more about me all the time.” She took off on a powerwalk, laughing the entire way.

I counted my blessings to be part of something I didn’t have growing up, gifts I would always celebrate. Blood meant nothing when it came to loyalties. Loyalties were about choices. As much as these two expected to learn from me, the lessons were menial compared to what I already learned from Sharlyn- unconditional love and faith made us invincible. 

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Thursday, January 8, 2015

Making a Difference - Eradicate MS


I try to host a health related post each week in The Locker. I like to share my experiences in the hopes of helping someone else. I've decided to make a little turn and have a guest host for the next few weeks.

My friend Brian is a beast. He cycles more miles in a year than I probably drive in my car. He has a passion for health, and shares an equal passion to eradicate MS. Please be kind to Brian and give him a warm welcome.

Hugs-




Research on immune activity in MS

Understanding and stopping MS in its tracks requires a better understanding of the role that the immune system plays in this disease. This system is involved both in the inflammatory attacks on myelin and, very possibly, in the injury to axons (the wire-like nerve fibers) that contributes to longer-term disability. Research on the immune system includes studies on:

  • Understanding components of the immune system such as T cells, B cells, and antibodies.
  • Identifying new targets for therapeutic intervention while leaving the rest of the immune system capable of fighting infections.
  • Identifying substances and processes involved in the injury of axons.
  • Identifying the body’s natural immune messenger molecules that can either turn on or turn off immune attacks.

Significant progress is being made in understanding the immune system's involvement in MS, which will help drive breakthrough solutions to change the world for everyone with MS. Studies of the immune system in MS laid the groundwork for every disease-modifying therapy now available, and these studies continue to hold promise for finding ways to stop MS.

Without your help, and donations, the National MS Society would not be able to fund research like this. Please support me in my 10th BikeMS by visiting my page at http://main.nationalmssociety.org/goto/Brian2015 to make a donation. Thank you.